Life has been a bit on the hectic side lately, in case you couldn’t figure that out by the crickets chirping around here. September was not very kind to me this year and I went from barely keeping my head above water to practically drowning for a few weeks. Within one weekend, I quit my nanny job, attended the wedding of a cousin, contacted my best friend for the first time in three weeks and attended the funeral of my paternal grandmother. It was a bit of an emotional whirlwind.
I have now been effectively unemployed for just over a week and doing my best not to panic about finding something new. I am looking for something in the Administrative realm, hoping to put my organizational and computer skills to good use. Photography is still there, but I want to be able to have something to do everyday while I’m building up my portfolio and client base. I don’t want to push too hard and put too much pressure on my photography because I want it to remain a passion and I am easily susceptible to burnout. I have been contacted by multiple families looking for a nanny, so I am not ruling that out, but not actively pursuing a new nanny family.
I don’t regret my previous job. It was good pay and I learned a lot, but one of the things I learned was that I need to take care of myself. I found myself working almost 55 hours a week and being too worn out in the evenings to accomplish much else. At first I thought it was just because I’m not used to working full-time, but I came to realize that there are other, better places to work that can offer me more.
I am a very loyal person and I feel very strongly about keeping my word, so believe me when I say this is not the only reason I left. I’m not gonna lie, there were many other issues that had simply resisted multiple efforts to solve them. The relationship between a Mom and a Nanny is a very delicate one and I think I knew after a mere few weeks that this relationship wasn’t going to work out. We did not part as friends; however, I wish her all the best in the future and I offer up many prayers for her future nannies.
I will very much miss the babies and leaving has made me long all the more for one of my own, but all I can do is realize that it is all for the best and trust in God’s perfect timing.
Here’s to new beginnings!